Well, I believe that I am doing better. But I am still sad. Oh well.

Anyways, I was supposed to go to this interview yesterday, but I chickened out bc that guy kinda (well not really kinda, he really) makes me feel uneasy and uncomfortable. Those are the same things huh. So I bailed on the whole thing...anyways, it just didn't seem right that he wanted to discuss their possible positions for his company over dinner. Now tell me that doesn't sound fishy to you? Oh well, so I decided to call my dad and told him not to pick up my mom from work and so I went to go and get her in Glendale.

I was being a butt and I wasn't answering Adam's phone calls. Adam is someone I was dating, but I'm not for right now. We are on a break or as he put it we're on "hold." So I guess that we aren't going to talk as much anymore, nor text message or see eachother as much. That is what he needs us to do, so I will do it. It hurts and it's sad, but the only thing I can do is just deal.

Oh well, on friday I am going to the movies with my dear friend Alicia. Don't know what I am going to see, but I am sure that I will enjoy it. Thats about it for now, after 3pm imma hang with my friends. That's it.

wow...it's amazing to see how this still remains even though i haven't written in it for so long. I am not doing all that great and i am saddened by everything that has been going on...i know the cycle needs to be broken of all the uncertainty, insecurities, and pain. No more will that be around. i am just heart broken and empty. i wish i could fill this void, but what i need to make me whole is the Love that i have lost. But in the meantime, i just have to go on waiting and just go on...
i need my friends....i wish they were awake. I have ouchies on my arms...not very pleasant bruises that do in fact hurt. Oh well. I'll deal.

Hey Monkey, thanks for the late night call. It was needed and it was nice to chat with you PriPri, even if it was just for a little while. I miss Josh, Matt, Nate-dogg, Leo and Colleen...how are you all you guys? well time for me to watch Sleepless in Seattle, when in actuality, its Sleepless in Cypress...=( To sleep without Love is just so sad...I guess here's to another sleepless night.

Well now, it's been awhile. Got in a fight with my ex-bf, been working and having to search for a new place to live. It's sad how much the cost of living for college students is nowadays. Oh well, just rolling with the punches!!

Monkey, all I can say is "good job." ;) Well, have to get ready for work. I'll be around.

Well now, as my Fanta and I would say,...I feel under the weather. My vision is blurry and i have a headache. Oh well! I'll get over it.

Anywho, I have to work tonight, not cool. Yesterday was really fun. I went to the beach with Natalie, Colleen and Josh. I created "Sun Art"...now Colleen has a star on the back of her shoulder from the sunblock and Josh's back looks like a jersey. Heehee. I got mad sunburn on my back. oh well. It was funstuff.

"Oh I found sand." I am such a dork. Then we went to China Buffet and I ate too much. Matt and I discovered these really tasty sugary donut things. YUM...but I got sugar lips after biting into it. Fun times. Then I drove back home to Huntington Beach to chill with my Fanta, but there was a miscommunication and so its been pushed to Thursday.

Anyways, I have to go and run some errands, Monkey!! you are the best!

Well now, it's surely been awhile. I have been off on a mission to  clear up some things in my life. I have been in a much better humor lately! YAY!

I must say, I had the best time chilling with Mikey and his friends. It was one of the funnest and funniest times I've had in awhile. Thank you my dear Scottsmen for making it a night to remember. It was really great to actually get to catch up and touch bases with Tommy and Mike and Sean (crazy Sean). I think Luke and Christine are the cutest couple! I was good and I didn't get drunk. Thank you to Monkey and Tom for watching out for me!

Thank you for the comforting, calming, and carefree conversation under the cloudy, polluted reflections of light in the sky. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! Thank you for sharing a part of you! Your friendship is cherished. What I love most about you is that you make sense.

Probably one of the most eye-opening things anyone has ever said to me was something down the lines of why do we need to give a hug, when us talking here for two hours shows how much I care.

...what can I say, I was touched.

Well, got stuff to do.